Heart After Hope

Pain is beautiful in comparison to this.
This familiar sense of nothingness,
Heart, mind and soul engulfed.
Not only unable to feel emotions:
Unwilling to.
Crimson ribbons emblazon wrists,
Exotic bangles on the white palette of emptiness.
Black lines crawl adamantly from eyes,
Eyes encircled, red and blotchy,
Tired of caring.
Tired of crying.
Tired of wanting.
Tired of trying.